Trusting God When Life Falls Apart

“And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from His glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.” —Philippians 4:19

My oldest son was in 5th grade and needed a 20 oz. Coke bottle for a science project at school. I pulled in to the gas station only to find that I didn’t have any money. I began desperately searching the car, hopeful to find some loose change under the seats. Not today. Had my life really come to this? I sat in the car and cried for what seemed like hours. I finally mustered up the courage to go into the store to ask for a Coke on credit with a promise to come back and pay for it the following week.

Clinging to God

As a single mom I had become well acquainted with life on the edge; having to trust God for everything. My middle class life had been hurled into poverty overnight and now there was nothing else to do but trust.

Just a few years prior, I had found myself living in a motor home in my dad’s back yard, homeless with nowhere else to turn. I left my short, turbulent marriage in the middle of the night with the clothes on my back, two children at each side and one on the way. I had nothing else to hang on to but God.

You see, what I have come to discover is that struggles are just a part of life. They can’t be avoided. What we can do, however, is learn to respond to these struggles differently. Respond to them from a place of trust and not from a place where the circumstances control how we ract.

The cashier at the gas station saw my distress that day and offered to buy the coke for me. I was humiliated and horrified. I went back to the car, cried some more and prayed: “God, why? If I could just get child support everything would be okay.” God very clearly reminded me that my ex-husband was not my provider. I knew that God’s word said that He would supply all of my needs but I wanted Him to supply them without humiliating me. I had allowed pride to stop me from seeing His provision.

God always provides

You see, God wanted to teach me that He would supply all of my needs. Not just some of them but all of them! And He would provide for me in a way that would break down anything that hindered my walk with Him.

He was much more concerned that day about my character than He was about that Coke. That day, from His glorious riches he refined a little bit of my character and I was that much closer to becoming more like Him.

It wasn’t an easy lesson and it was extremely painful, but I am a much better off today because of it.

“Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear… For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow…” —Matthew 6:31-34

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Allison is passionate about ministering to the hearts of women.  She is a self-proclaimed, mistake makin mess, learning to live with a heart of reckless abandon.  Coming from a past of sexual abuse, drugs, alcohol, promiscuity and more, Allison knows […]

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